Thursday. 10 1/2 weeks into this new world.
Everything has changed.
I no longer have a “get up and going” attitude. Instead I get up with knowing it is another day to get through and oh I am so tired of having to get through. I try to go on because I know Justin would be so sad if I changed who I was and what I loved to do. But honestly, it is so hard every day.
Today a friend is having a little gathering at her home to help me address and stamp the thank you cards. I made my own because I didn’t like the generic feel of the ones that were given to us to send. I know those cards would have worked for probably about 95% of the population and most people would probably have been thankful that it was something they did not have to think about – but for me, the cards we were given did not say enough of what the support of friends and family has meant to us. I can’t even express that what people have done has helped lift us up over this awful chasm in our lives. Justin and I both have a creative side and the cards… well the cards were something I needed to do for both of us.
So that is today.
Tonight I have an invite from a girl in my book club to come over, talk books, and have a glass of wine. That sounds nice. I am trying day to day to move forward in some manner. What might not look like significant progress to the normal person, is a huge step for me. Even leaving my house to go to someone elses to work on thank you’s or to have a nice talk and a glass of wine is a big step.
Thank you for visiting me here at Book Journey and walking with me in all the ways you do through this process. In all the ways you reach out: leaving a comment, sending a card, saying a prayer, thinking of us…. this card is also for you.