I Was Here by Gayle Forman

I Was Here, Gayle Forman, If I Stay, Book JOurney

Cody and Meg were best friend.  Considered inseparable all through their school years the girls were constantly together until Meg receives a full scholarship and goes away to college.  They still communicated by email and phone calls but life gets busy… and the calls are more infrequent…

Then Cody is shocked when an email arrives from Meg telling Cody that by the time she read the message, it is already too late.

And it is.

Cody is confused by her friends suicide.  What signs did she miss?  When Cody goes to Meg’s college to collect her things she learns a lot more about the girl she thought she knew.  As Cody looks through Meg’s laptop she finds things that may be clues, including an encrypted file in the recycle bin that may hold more that Cody bargained for.




I enjoyed listening to I Was Here on audio.  This book deals with the hard subject of suicide and what happens after to those who are left behind.  Jorjeana Marie was an excellent narrator for this book, she held the right voice.

The basic story line of this book is good and I think author Gayle Forman in on the right track with Cody discovering a side to her friend she didn’t know existed, however some things did not work for me in the story.

Meg’s parents come off as distant and I get grief, but the fact that they did not go to the college themselves to pick up Meg’s things seemed odd.

Cody’s actions throughout the book are off as well.  I felt as though in the end I knew Meg more than I knew Cody.

Do not get me wrong, I did like I Was Here as a whole.  It tells a good story of a major loss.  I was very impressed with the epilogue which included the author giving a statement on suicide as well as help lines(including phone numbers!) for those who are having suicidal thoughts.

While I did not fully connect with the book, it was a good listen.

Gayle Forman is also the author of the book If I Stay which this last year was a major motion picture.



  • Listening Length: 7 hours and 42 minutes
  • Program Type: Audiobook
  • Version: Unabridged
  • Publisher: Listening Library
  • Audible.com Release Date: January 27, 2015


If I Stay Book vs. Movie



Synopsis:  Mia Hall is a gifted cellist.  She is quite possibly on her way to Julliard and is making hard decision with her boyfriend Adam who plays in a successful band.  Stay or go seem to be the decisions that Mia struggles with.  She has wonderful loving parents and a little brother she adores… there is so much to stay for.  Then one snow day her family takes a drive and is in a terrible accident that leaves Mia in a coma.  Mia has an out of body experience as she sees herself in the hospital.  As everything crumbles around her Mia and only Mia can make the decision if she should stay or if she should go.


The Book

I reviewed this book on my birthday in 2011.  Side note.. my reviews are kind of funny then… for myself I rated the book an average read.  It was good and I liked it but it was not over the top WOW.  We reviewed this as a group for my book club and we actually had a wonderful discussion over it, which I talk about in the review.


The Movie

I recently watched the movie of If I Stay that came out this year.  I did not think it would be “theater worthy” so I waited for it to come out for rental.  I have to admit I was surprised with how much I enjoyed the movie.  Mia played by Chloe Grace Moretz was wonderful.  I teared up several times during the scenes where she experiencing the pain of seeing what is happening around her.  Adam, played by Jamie Blackley was also exceptional.  Maybe I was just in the right mood for this kind of movie but whatever it was it really touched my heart.

Knowing that time and distance from the reading of the book may have to do with my decision her today I am going to have to say the winner of this Book vs Movie is…



See it… read it… but if you are going to choose one or the other I think the movie came off as more powerful and emotional.  Dang… it was GOOD.