Morning Meanderings… Getting Through


Coffee morning.

Or perhaps, they all are.

This one however is a reminiscent morning.  I am sitting here quietly thinking over the last 24 hours.  Yesterday was my birthday and another day to get through.  This one had a lot of hold on me for two reasons…

  1.  This birthday would officially make me the oldest living member of my immediate family (mom, dad, sister), something that I have thought about for years.
  2. This would be the first one without Justin.

Getting through it, defenses up seemed the way to go.

I had explained to friends early on that I did not have any desire to celebrate this birthday.  I asked that they let me go through this as quickly and as quietly as possible. Just another day.  I really struggle(d) with the thought that I was getting older, and my son would not.


However,  friends, like loopholes….  and while they did not 100% follow my wishes, they were very sweet about it.  As a “Valentines Gift” I received a “Dammit Doll” (a doll that you are supposed to use when you are frustrated, smacking her on the table saying… you guessed it, “Dammit Dammit Dammit.”  I decided she looked a little like me and she had enough so she will not be beat by me…. instead she sits on a shelf in the book room.

book journey, dammit dolls

My friend Gail sent me a “Happy February” card with a promise of a custom made rack to let beans grow on for my garden this spring.  My friend Wendy had lunch with me yesterday and celebrated “February” by giving me a beautiful wine sign and a woozie, a wine cozy.

Then last evening was book club and we had an excellent review of The Life We Buried and fun with Spam (more on this later today so be sure to come back!), but they also had a little celebration of my birthday which was unexpected.  There was cheesecake (really my favorite cake), and a few gifts.  It was very sweet of them to do as I read cards through tears.


The little item on the black wrap is a charm for my Pandora bracelet… it is a clover which represents Justin and I and our times together.  He had a tattoo of a clover to commemorate our annual trips to Florida (it is the symbol used at the Irish Pub we always stopped at), and this spring I too got the clover tattoo in memory of him and our times together.


So that was my day yesterday.  Not quite as quiet and straight on through it as I had planned – but honestly, my friends  were very sweet and while it was a hard birthday, the kindness of those in my life really helped me walk on through this too.  Justin, I know would be cheering.


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Posted on February 10, 2016, in Meanderings and tagged . Bookmark the permalink. 13 Comments.

  1. I figured yesterday would be tough for you so I’m glad your friends didn’t listen to you. Your book club is the best!

  2. I can’t even imagine. Glad you got through it with good support.

  3. Totally understandable. I imagine it would be a tough day to get through but as usual, you handled it with grace.

  4. Even though sometimes one wants to hideaway under the radar, friends provide filtered warm sunshine through the cracks to make sure you are loved and thought of. Good February goodies here.

  5. Friends are the best! Healing begins when we reach out and allow others in. Take care.

  6. Those are great February gifts. You are lucky to have friends that understand you well.

  7. Your friends are the best! And now the day is in the past … {hugs}

  8. I’m not surprised that you have wonderful friends 🙂 Sending you hugs.

  9. I also heard on the radio that a new Harry Potter book is to be released by J K Rowling so be sure to watch out for it. The announcement was made on the news on your birthday. How much synchronicity is that?

  10. I am so glad your friends got you through the day in their sneaky ways!

  11. You really are surrounded by an astonishingly wonderful group of friends.

  12. You have such wonderful friends! Glad you were able to get through the day, albeit through tears, and came out the other side with great companionship and lovely gifts.

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