Morning Meanderings… I Didn’t Mean To Go ______________________


Good morning.

I didn’t mean to go….




Under cover?

I don’t know.  I guess I just didn’t mean to go.

The past two weeks have been so out of my control that I am just doing what I have to do to get through the days.  With two large events just around the corner I am trying hard to find balance.  You throw in the mix my friend Connie, a big storm that requires clean up attention, commitments, people I need to want to spend time with, and my own grief….

and yeah. 

Just trying to get through it.

And so – with all of that, I find I do not get here – HERE as much as I would like.  I am still not firing on all cylinders which makes all of these things that I could normally handle feel heavy and hard to do just the easiest of tasks.  I am so easily…


Yesterday and today I have tried hard to slow down.  I have had things I had to do every day and I am feeling the strain on putting my grief to the side to get things done.  For the record, I have discovered that does not work well… it exhausts me and leaves me pretty nonfunctional come the end of the day.  Tomorrow my “to do’s” bump up again, the weekend is full of activity and next week…

I don’t even want to think about next week.


1I do have posts to write.  I have a couple of audio I have finished and just downloaded Armada this morning which I am SUPER EXCITED about.  We also had the Bookies Queen event this week which took a lot of energy but I am so glad I participated.  L♥ve this group of gals.  I will write a post up all about that – maybe today.

Just a sample from the Tuesday Bookies Queen event

That’s it for this morning.  I have a few things itching at the corners of my brain reminding me I need to do them… and I do, so off I go.  Enjoy THIS day.


17 thoughts on “Morning Meanderings… I Didn’t Mean To Go ______________________

  1. After loss, there is always that lack of balance, and moving forward is all about baby steps.
    Some of them move you forward, some back. I am glad you are enjoying the Bookies events. You are in my thoughts.

  2. Baby steps. If something gets too overwhelming, ask someone to help you or even take over. You are still feeling so much raw emotion.
    Thinking of you always. Hugs, my friend.

  3. Aw, Sheila, I hope things go ok. When can you go back to your cabin? Seems that is the place where you can truly unwind. Sending you hugs.

  4. Grief is so physically and emotionally exhausting! I hope you can carve some quiet moments out of each day to relax and just “be.”

    I got a copy of Armada on Tuesday and can’t wait to start reading it on my flights to Oregon this weekend!!! Hope it’s as good as Ready Player One!

  5. Sheila, I really can’t imagine that anyone you’re connected to online has any expectations whatsoever as to when you’ll post here and with what. I do know that I like to know how you’re doing. Trying to balance yourself and your life–a woman who, at your core, is productive and lively–with the weight of your grief and how it drains you, is a tough rope to walk. Keep relying on God, Sheila oxox

  6. I think you’re being too hard on yourself. You seem to be posting every day which I find amazing. Take whatever time you need to just be, not do. Sending hugs from Canada.

  7. Sheila, you are doing a lot and I am glad that you have many friends who adore you. Your energy is astounding.

    My own blogging has been scarce this summer. I haven’t been reading much, but I hope to get back into reading and blogging soon(ish). Take good care, Sheila!

  8. When I’ve taken breaks i the past and apologised people have always been very forgiving. I mean.. it’s nice to be missed but everyone understands we get busy and have other commitments and sometimes we’re just not in the right headspace. Take care. xxx

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