Wednesday morning here in Minnesota. Yesterday I had lunch with my Aunts and they were chatting about an article I had written for a local magazine that had just come out that day. I was unsure what they were talking about until they explained further and it was something I had written in early March when life was well… not this one. I had completely forgotten about the article although I knew I would have written the magazine release date down in my agenda. My agenda that I lived by day to day with all my “to do’s” and my “where I should be’s” and my “don’t forgets”.
Now that agenda lays under a pile of papers on my kitchen table. I only open it if I must to check on the dates of something. Now I can’t stand living by an agenda because it reminds me of the me who filled up all my time DOING DOING DOING and honestly for whatever reason it reminds me of who I was and this new and fragile me doesn’t like that busy person.
Even though I know it does not change a thing.
Now I live by a rule of if it gets done – it gets done. I want to complete things, I do… but my focus is not there. I am careful with my heart right now and I know I am not strong enough to charge ahead and make things happen. Perhaps someday, but hopefully not to the extent where I was… living by an agenda.
Today I have a friend coming over for coffee. This after noon another friend is coming over to work on my hosta garden with me and plant the two bleeding hearts I bought for Mother’s Day. Tonight I have the City Library Board meeting…. my first one since…
That’s enough of an agenda for me.
Many of our bookish friends are at the Book Expo that opens up today in New York. I am excited for them as this event has been one of the highlights of my year every year since 2010. I hope this one is also amazing.
Have a good day everyone.