Morning Meanderings… A Mix of Grief and A Smile


I have a picture file in my computer named “Justin”.  It is all the pictures that I have from friends postings on-line that I have copied and saved in my file.  There are over 500 pictures.

I am Gollum.

Everything…. is my precious.

It has been a while since I have added anything to this file.  While friends are still posting pictures and talking about him (thank you thank you thank you) they are mostly pictures I already have.

Until yesterday.

The Honduras Team is back in Honduras.  This is a trip that Justin would have been on and he would have been so excited to return to Honduras and those kids.  He had just returned last March for his 5th time going and we had a long talk on how much this trip had impacted him.  He was already talking about this years trip.

Yesterday this was posted on-line:


This is the plaque that is on the building that was dedicated in Justin’s memory.  It is so beautiful.  He would have loved this connection to the kids.

It is 11 months today.  I can hardly believe that.  This picture of the plaque somehow seems like wonderful timing.


Today I drive to St Paul.  I am on the Minnesota Literary Landmark committee and we are discussing this years placement over lunch.  As much as I would love to stay home curled up in my own grief, going is probably the better choice.  It is hard to keep going with such a large piece of your life missing, but I continue to do it because I know he would want me to.

15 thoughts on “Morning Meanderings… A Mix of Grief and A Smile

  1. May the love that Justin had on his heart for those children reach your heart and give you comfort. May the kids that he impacted while he was in Honduras go out and be the change that they want to see in the world to make it a better place. Love you and praying for you.

  2. I love the photo they chose – he looks so relaxed and happy. I can’t imagine how you go on with your grief and I wish I could take it away for just one day.

  3. Bravo Sheila ! Justin will be happy today . The plaque and picture are beautiful have a peaceful and meaningful day. Love Judy

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