Another lovely day here in Central Minnesota. I am up early as usual. COFFEE cup in hand I explore the deck off the back of the house, my way of bonding with the weather of the day deciding how to dress and mentally ticking off the “to do’s” of the day – or more likely in this time in my life, the lack of “to do’s”. Just “being” is about all I can do right now.
I am having these…. moments. Moments I think, “What would Justin say about that?” Imaging conversations in my head about his take on life happenings, Bouncing off the “what if’s” and planning for future get togethers. Get togethers I know (I know I know) can not happen. I think I am going to pick up a nice notebook and start writing things down that I would say to him just to put it out there. So much I have to say and no where to put the words.
Books have really been my salvation. I bury myself in reading and audio every chance I get. Safer now to be in someone elses world than my own. Yesterday I started Whisper Beach by Shelley Noble and I am devouring it…enjoying the beach atmosphere once again, friendships renewing, and a lovely vision of the Blue Crab Cafe which in my mind carries delicious aromas every time it is mentioned in the book. Born With Teeth I am just getting into, still learning about Katie Mulgrew’s childhood…. new to my Audible listening is Down The Rabbit Hole by Holly Madison, a once “top bunny” of the Playboy Mansion (so that may sound like an odd choice to listen to but the sample was really good, so we shall see…)
Today I may tackle a garden project… undecided at this point but I have perennials to plant and an idea forming in my head. Nothing big on my agenda today (thankfully!) and I think a quiet day here at home is just about as good as it gets these days. My upcoming weekend has slowly filled up with “to do’s” and it makes me nervous to be that FULL. I know life goes on, I see it all around me but I am not moving anywhere near the pace that it is.