It has only been a few months since Lex’s brother Ty committed suicide.  Since that time Lex feels as though she has been in a long tunnel trying to reach towards the light and the air that has to better in the light than it is in this darkness. Her mother is deeply depressed and her part-time father doesn’t know how to reach either of them… or perhaps his absence when his son needed him makes him not invited to this level of grief.

As Lex begins to move forward trying to rebuild her broken life she also knows that she will not be able to be complete until she admits to someone…

anyone..

about the text that she received… and how if she could turn back time, maybe; just maybe she could have changed everything.

Drawn into this book by that synopsis, I could not wait to know more.  Lex is an excellent protagonist.  As a highschooler, Lex has all the exposure of being the girl whose brother committed suicide.  She sees the sympathetic sad looks on the other students faces, some are her friends feeling awkward, but many she doesn’t really know and almost resents their grief.

I like how this book goes back and forth.  Assigned by her therapist to write down her feelings, Lex remembers her brother through her journal giving us a full view of who Ty was.  Raw and emotional this is a good picture of a family dealing with the worst possible scenario and trying to hard to find a way to go on.

In the end there is an important lesson about grief and forgiveness. Seriously the last few chapters made me a pool of tears, but – in a good way.  They were tears of awe and maybe on a more personal note… memory. Well written.  As I listened to this on audio, the narration of Julia Whelan was just the right voice for this book.

• Audible Audio Edition
• Listening Length: 9 hours and 19 minutes
• Program Type: Audiobook
• Version: Unabridged
• Publisher: Harper Audio
• Audible.com Release Date: February 10, 2015